Psych Central is a top non-Wikipedia hit on Google for the term codependency. I’ve decided to go through the symptoms of codependency listed there and check what applies to my current relationship with DS. She and I have talked about the topic a fair bit, but it doesn’t hurt to listen to the experts. So …
There is a number of great #MeToo posts this week, all warmly recommended. For me, an older straight white male who grew up in a non-Western society, the issues of sexual harassment were nowhere on the list of the topics that bothered me growing up. No one groped me, no one tried to force sex …
Control is what gets me off sexually. Having someone willingly submit to you, or, even better, forcing them to submit to you even when they fight you, is intoxicating. Luckily, I get to experience it in a consensual way. Who knew. Watching my partner writhing in pain and discomfort from something I am doing to …
I’ve challenged myself to write a post from scratch two hours before the deadline, and this is what came out. Consider yourself warned 🙂 I am a programmer by trade. That means I deal with algorithms for a living. What is an algorithm? Google says that an algorithm is defined as a process or set …
This is a rather boring description of our average weekday. We do not have rituals, but we do try to have routines, and sometimes it works. 7:30 am: I wake up at around 7:30 am, give or take 10 min, every weekday, no alarm necessary. The morning routine is abbreviated these days, to minimize the …
This post is more of a stream of consciousness. Eleven dark floors down from the balcony. And only one step left. She is standing on a chair, looking down, holding onto the railing, shaking. I don’t see her face, but I can imagine the expression. Alternating between determination, ferocity, fear, utter terror and savagery. And …
CW: rambling. Vain Hope I have always felt out of tune with the world, hoping against hope that this may change some day, while knowing with certainty that it never will. Never has. Silence Never has. Some four years ago I wrote a collection of erotic stories which I self-published on Amazon, under a pseudonym. …
My partner, DeviantSuccubus, a.k.a. Puppet, was courageous enough to write about DID and Relationships, despite knowing that very few people would be able to truly relate. So I figured I’d write about the same topic, but from the opposite perspective, as someone who is in a relationship with a… system. “Complicated” does not begin to …
Appearances can be deceiving. Some relationships have all the outward signs of one person dominating the other (or another, or others, depending on the arrangement), but a closer look can reveal a different dynamics underneath. An apparent leader can be a puppet of a skilled handler, despite the latter showing all the hallmarks of obedience …
It was early 2010 and I was gifted a Twilight audiobook, a CD set with one of the most hated apples in the modern literary universe on the cover. I don’t recall if I had seen the movie with the ridiculous sun sparkles on Cedric’s face, but the combination of the universal tween obsession and …
